Aug 102015
 

Earlier this year I read a story by Roger Zelazny. It was called Epithalamium and it was about a grown up Alice from Alice in Wonderland. Alice returns to wonderland and makes the comment that it was a strange magical place. A character corrects her and tells her that Alice was the strange magical one.

Now you could interpret that as strangeness is relative. To people in Wonderland, Wonderland is normal and Alice is the weird one. That isn’t what happened in my brain. In my brain I looked at Alice objectively for the first time.

There is this young girl who falls down a rabbit hole and goes to another world. We assume the rabbit hole is magical. In another story she messes around with a mirror and returns to Wonderland. We assume the mirror is magical as well. That is bad logic. The only thing these journeys have in common is Alice. It makes far more sense that Alice has the ability to travel to places. Being a young child it makes sense that Alice visited places that reflect her childish nature.

So I started thinking about grown up Alice. What other places did she go to? Did she get better at controlling it? What places would interest a grown up Alice?

Since I am a porn writer, my mind goes to porn places. I imagine a sexually adventurous woman traveling to sexually adventurous places.

What kind of a sexually adventurous woman? I thought about my friend from back in the day, Maria Gonzales. Maria was a Mexican immigrant who came to America, had some wild sex adventures and settled down and married. She wrote exhibitionist submissive stories that she shared with her husband. She was a good friend of mine and we used to chat for hours about her fantasies. I miss her a lot.

Maria is someone I could easily see stepping through to other worlds to get fucked and then return back home to tell her husband all about it while they fucked.

As a writer I divide my work into two categories. The first is my long work, my novellas, my ebooks and my blog projects. These require planning, planning and more planning followed by a shit ton of work.

My other category is the weekly stories. I churn out a story a week because I fear if I don’t, I might get one day get discouraged by a long work and take a break that turns into a hiatus that turns into “Hey, remember when I used to write?” The weekly grind of producing keeps me honest.

The best way to meet a weekly deadline is with serials. If I have a character and a premise, I can return to it again and again until the premise no longer interests me. It is a lot like mining an idea until the vein runs out.

A person like Maria going to one world after another satisfying her range of kinks is something I think I can return to a lot.

First I need to develop the character. It is important to me at this stage to make a character that is not another white character. My friends are of many ethnicities and I am painfully aware of how few characters there are in mainstream fiction that they can identify with much less in porn. If I can add a non-white character, especially a serial character, I’ll leap at the chance.

I settled on Hispanic and specifically Puerto Rican. I was very close to going with Polynesian or Japanese but in the end it just came down to whim.

I picked the name of Felicia because it reminded me of Alice.

I decided early on to not explain how or why Felicia can go to other places. I’m of the age where I find explanations are rarely as satisfying as the mystery.

I was also influenced by Gene Wolfe’s “There Are Doors” which is one of my top ten favorite books. To tell you anything would spoil it so go read it.

I hope you enjoy my Felicia stories and I hope you enjoyed or learned something from my process.

  5 Responses to “On Wonderlands”

  1. You are a wonderful writer.

    Sadly, I hit the “I use to write” lately, which has been a rather depressing point of view. Your stories encourage me, not only because they are fun and sexy, but because you are steadily working forward.

    • Thank you. I’m sorry to hear about your not writing lately. It is a terrible affliction and I wish you the best of luck in overcoming it.

      • When we decided to have a second child, I knew that my writing time would be impacted. And we are considering adopting a third, which will give even less time. But, in a few years, maybe I’ll have more time to write? No idea, I have to be patient.

        In the mean time, I am doing a weekly serial (but probably won’t one of your kinks) to at least get the feeling I’m writing *something*… even if I wrote it eight years ago.

  2. “First I need to develop the character. It is important to me at this stage to make a character that is not another white character. My friends are of many ethnicities and I am painfully aware of how few characters there are in mainstream fiction that they can identify with much less in porn. If I can add a non-white character, especially a serial character, I’ll leap at the chance.”
    *wipes a tear from her eye*

    Librarian Claire give me a little something to identify with, so I appreciate it, sincerely. Being an ethnic minority in the White Western world can be tough at times.

    And yeah the ‘i used to write’ thing huh.
    For me, that “status” has been stuck so long, it’s hard to go back to revert it. Feels like my magic has gone for not using it often and mastering it but if I’m to be hopeful, I guess I could say it’s just lying dormant within me :)

    • I will say that I went a few years between writing and when I came back it didn’t take long to get back into it. I feel it comes down to just those first few words, you know? Still I completely sympathize.

      I am so glad Claire touched a personal bit of you. Stories like yours is what keeps encouraging me to always be more diverse.

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