I’ve never feared getting older. When you grow up in an emotionally abusive household, getting older is the light at the end of the tunnel. It’s good to get old. It’s good to get out of the house. When I was a young twenty something, I had a hard time being taken seriously as a dominant male. Submissives equate age with power and strength. Heck, even as an amateur porn writer my age seemed to be a handicap. Of course I was writing about sexy Ninjas, I was too young as far as my online colleagues were concerned. Cripes, if I could have turned 36 at the age of 25 I would have.
The really weird thing about being 36 is that I feel like my life is just starting. I’m writing stuff I’m really proud of. I have a girlfriend who treats me as an equal. I am enriching myself with movies, books and experiences every week. I have stuff to do and I feel like I am finally doing it. I love life instead of just enduring it.
Have a great day today for me.