When my anxiety stopped me from writing, I sought out other creative outlets. One of them was playing online text based games where you create a character and role-play them with other people. I being the kinky sort gravitated to sex oriented games. I was invited by my kinky friends to come to The Marketplace, a game based on Laura Antoniou’s books of the same name.
I decided to create a sort of shorthand character. I wanted something that was almost a cliche so that you could describe him in one word and know his deal. I went with the idea of a Librarian who sought out books for an erotic collection. Being a writer, I couldn’t keep it simple. Every day that I sat down with Wesley, I fleshed out the library he worked for and what kind of strange man could work for them. I determined that Wesley had obsessive compulsive tendencies and that he was almost a victim of his work. His desires were heavily influenced by whatever book he was procuring as well kept a fever pitch by the erotic nature of his work. Being a BDSM oriented game, I went through several submissives and slaves who assisted Wesley in the library.
The game eventually died out and I went back to writing. There was a sense of loss though. Wesley was a weird man, but his library fascinated me. I liked the idea of a place that sought out the erotic and treasured it. When I go to used bookstores, they almost never have an erotic section and when I turn in my books, the erotic ones almost always get rejected. I started to obsess a little over what happens to erotica. Who kept it? Was it all ending up in landfills?
So I sat down and wrote “Librarians of the Colette-Ashbee Collection”. I chucked the character of Wesley, who as a neurotic man who had more in common with Adrian Monk than anyone else. I replaced him with Mr. Dillon, a far saner if just as strict character. I created Claire based on my own personal desires as well as the best qualities of the submissives I have played with. I established the idea of an apprenticeship because I want the library to last forever. Funny how even in stories a writer lays the foundation for something to survive the writer.
These stories are special to me because they combine so many of my interests. I love the formality between Mr. Dillon and Claire. I love the quest to seek out erotica. I love glasses on smart submissives. I love how so far, Claire learns to appreciate someone else’s desires and kinks. I could easily sit down and write endless scenes with these characters but I push myself when it comes to these two. I want to portray them just right.