Anxiety runs through my mind like a tornado. I’m worried about the bills which were fucked up by the too-high electricity bill and an over zealous phone company. I’m worried about a country that seems to be working overtime to forget what happened last year with Katrina. I’m worried about my writing and how it all reads like crap to me right now. I’m worried about having another damn fight with my wife who seems to take the contrary position on every topic I talk about just to be contrary. I’m worried about the fact that I am in a full blown anxiety mood and there are things to be done and I don’t feel up for any of it.
I’m looking forward to Dragoncon tomorrow. I think four days of convention fun will reboot my brain and exhaust me too much to worry about anything. I want to take a vacation from myself. Just walk away from the mess that is me and be something else for awhile. Something that is not as mentally fucked up as I am.