I have notebooks. I can’t help it. I haven’t been in school in years but I still have little spiral notebooks cluttering up the place. I have four sitting by my computer right now.
Some of them are for role-playing games. I need to plot my adventures in advance before I scare/kill/amuse my friends with adventures. And since I end up making 50% of it up anyway when my players don’t follow the damn script, I need the notebooks to write down the shit I’m making up on the fly.
One notebook is for writing. It’s where I jot down outlines for my longer stories. I also write down brilliant ideas as they occur to me. Sadly, a lot of these brilliant ideas are too brilliant to be contained by my laconic note taking system. For example, I have written down-
“BDSM Boot camp held for one week for newbie subs.”
Okay, that’s a good note. A year later I’m going to know what that means. However, what the fuck does this mean?
“Boobs as books”
Umm, I don’t know either.
Lastly I have a special kind of notebook I haven’t actually had in far too long. That’s my little purple notebook I keep for a submissive that I am dominating. I start a new notebook for each sub. I keep track of all the things they respond to, all the things they hate and other notes. Yes, I keep a notebook for my love life.
What fascinates me about these little purple notebooks is that I have never seen a BDSM advice book recommend one. They always tell the submissive to keep a journal so that the dom can read their private thoughts at any moment but somehow the dom gets out of the paperwork. That’s just silly. The submissive can act as a secretary but I need to keep track of stuff she’ll never know. Like the fact that she always scratches her nose when she is lying. Or the fact that she keeps looking at the Barnes and Noble guy like she is going to eat him one day. This is stuff I need to know and use, and I’m not going to remember it a week later because frequent spankings and blowjobs kill the long term memory.
The other big reason I keep one is that I sometimes go mad with dom power. I might rattle off a dozen demands and expect them done by the end of the day. Then at the end of that day I have this nagging feeling I asked for stuff, but I am not 100% sure what it is. At least with a notebook, I can jot those down and check them off when they are done. Yay, record keeping!
I am the nerdiest dom ever.