Let’s talk nudity.
Years ago, back when I was writing all the time on Asstr.org, I came up with the idea of really exposing myself as a person and posting a picture of two of myself naked. I was really grooving to the idea of writing what one knows, and being ready to take risks and expose perhaps more than people asked for in your writing.
I was so excited by the idea that I ran it by my long distance relationship at the time. She hated the idea. She told me that I would lose people’s respect as a writer, that it was weird and that it was undignified. I didn’t agree but she was more popular than me as a writer and I thought she knew best.
Now I think she is full of shit.
When I started reading erotica blogs, I was taken back by all the nudity. I felt it distracted from the writing. RopeGirl and AlwaysArousedGirl made me think about my post and I realized that they had some good points about the nature of feeling desired and turning that creativity inward.
When I thought about myself, I was surprised by negative my own self image was. I didn’t want to take a picture of my eyes because I had dark bags under them. I didn’t want to take a picture of my back because it was hairy. I didn’t want a picture of my legs because I am too pale. I didn’t want a picture of my chest because I have a belly. Everywhere I looked, I found faults and although I never think of myself as a total package ugly guy, I was discovering that I didn’t like a single part of my body.
Well, here during Birthday Week, we are going to change a few things. Presented here is a picture of my cock, modestly covered by my boxers and encased in my fist.
You can see my belly, my hair and my pale skin. I like the fist though, it’s very direct. It might be campy, I don’t know, I’ll let others decide. All I know is that it’s me and right now I feel damn sexy.